Turning in the Service Dog in Training Vest

Mira has made a lot of progress in the year and a half I've had her, but it has become clear that we will probably never be able to count on her being 100% unflappable and appropriate in every situation. She just has not been able to completely get past the consequences of having lived in an abusive household before we got her, and having been trained as a guard dog previously. Although she is no longer afraid of most people and situations, it's still too unpredictable what will set off a fear or protection reaction for her.

I've had her in and out of public-access training several times, thought we had worked through things and began gradually working toward putting her back in it, only to have something else pop up and have to pull her out again.

At our last session with our trainer, my trainer and I were sitting at a table talking as people were walking by at a mall. A woman with a large shopping bag came up and was almost right in Mira's face before any of us saw her coming.

She asked if she could pet the dog.

As I said, "No. Please don't; she's in training" the woman moved in even closer toward Mira, reaching toward her. Mira got partway to her feet toward the woman, barking and growling at her. She still thinks she is a guard dog, as she had been trained to be by her previous owner. She knew I had just told the woman to stay away and was going to make sure she did.

At that point we decided that enough was enough, and it wasn't fair to Mira, me or the public to continue putting her in a position where this sort of thing could happen. No matter how careful we are and how much we train, I can't guarantee that it won't happen again with the right trigger. Mira has barked and growled and rushed at people more than once (even though when she had the chance to bite, she just stopped and looked sheepishly at the person).

I do not regret bringing Mira home, and she will still be able to help me a lot at home. She is very good at her assistance tasks and can still help me a lot on the days I stay home and need to minimize movement and exertion. But I have turned in our "service dog in training" vest and will not be doing public access training with her any more.

The good thing is that ever since I was in the double-blind placebo-controlled study through a local teaching and research university, and discovered that my neurological symptoms, balance issues, brain fog, fatigue, pain and other symptoms were hugely affected by excitotoxins in my diet, I've been feeling so much better that I really don't feel that I need a service dog for public access work any more. I am better able to predict and prevent my bad spells, and when I do have a bad spell I pretty much stay home anyway.

Almost all of the other fibromyalgia/IBS patients in the study were similarly helped--84% had more than 30% improvement in symptoms, and some even got to the point where they didn't meet the diagnostic criteria for having fibromyalgia any more after going through the study. It has been very exciting to be a part of that! The study author will be publishing the study results in scientific journals and coming out with a book on the excitotoxin-free diet soon.

So, Mira is transitioning to being an at-home helper and family pet. We're going to continue training, and are hoping to take a "Control Unleashed" class and eventually pass the Canine Good Citizen test. But we have ended one journey and are beginning a new one together.

I'm sad, and I feel that I've failed her. I keep wondering if I'd been more diligent or had done things differently, if the results would have been different. But at this point I know this was the right decision. In a way, it will make life a lot less easier for both of us and take a lot of the pressure off trying to make her fit into a role that she just didn't have the temperament and stability for, and that was constantly stressful for us both.

I am looking forward to continuing to train and learn with her.